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Tip #5

Learn to believe in yourself and move-on, you’re perfect just the way you are!

A young man sitting alone by the water

‘Shrey, are you home?’ Akanksha spoke into thin air, and opened the door of her room.

Her room was neatly organized. Bed-sheets were perfectly ironed. Cushions of the couch were on it’s place. The TV was not on and even the AC was switched off this time. No clothes or socks were lying around, and Shrey’s shoes were also not tossed like trash. That meant, Shrey was still not home.

Akanksha let out a sigh of relief as she saw the neat and clean bedroom. In nineteen years of her marriage, this was the first time that her room was spotless-clean. But she wondered where that man has been after all? She stared at the huge cuckoo clock that they had bought from Black Forest, Germany. It was 7 pm, and Shrey is never so late from office. He always returns at 5. As the clock struck seven, a chirpy cuckoo bird came out and chirped seven times, and went back in. She was reminded of that vacation clearly. Her memory of that vacation was fresher than anything else, as it was only last year that they went there, for Akshan and Nirvaan’s sweet-sixteenth birthdays! The boys had turned seventeen this year, and they both strongly disagreed on celebrating their most special day, out of the country. Besides, they were both young now, and had their own social circle.

Akshan was basketball champion, while Nirvaan excelled in chess. Akshan was stud of the school, while Nirvaan was a geek. Shrey always had a soft corner for Nirvaan, for being innocent and submissive, while Akshan was the one who witnessed a stricter side of his father for being the mischievous one! Nirvaan, who was loved more, was usually more afraid of Shrey, so he shared his little secrets with his darling mother, while Akshan was the bossy one who spat out everything in front of Shrey, fearlessly! Akshan was the one who took Shrey’s Audi at the age of fourteen on the highway in the middle of the night, while Nirvaan took car-lessons to overcome his fears of traffic and driving.

It was merely a month-ago affair that Nirvaan told Akanksha about a girl whom he liked from his maths class. She was the topper and a very smart girl, who in Akshan’s eyes was a total nerd! In the same week, Akshan also announced about his girlfriend to Shrey and even told him that he kissed her on her lips, which was an achievement for Akshan and a matter of disgust for Nirvaan. For Nirvaan, love was a matter of purity and a feeling of soul, while Akshan was more like Shrey who always had a nudge in his pants every time he saw a girl! Both the boys were twins, but strikingly different! Their likes, dislikes, habits, interests, everything was so different. Nirvaan was always called a carbon copy of Akanksha, while Akshan was the typical junior Shrey.

Shrey liked Nirvaan more, for he was his mother’s replica and the flawless one, but he always scolded Akshan for being like him. Although Shrey was perfect in Akanksha’s eyes, but he saw himself to be a flawed and full-of-mistakes-personality, and he didn’t want his son to turn like him. That was the reason of Akshan being the target of Shrey’s anger every time.

Akanksha was thinking about Shrey that she immediately got a call from him. She picked up the phone in an elated tone and said a cheerful ‘Hello’.

‘Hi…’ Shrey sounded low and depressed.

‘God! Shrey! Where are you? I was so worried!’

‘I’m coming home…’

‘Hey, what happened? Are you alright?’ Akanksha knew Shrey wasn’t okay. Neither did he call her ‘sweetheart’, nor he talked about making out, there was definitely something wrong with him.

‘Yeah, kind of…’

‘Tell me where are you?’

‘I’m coming home, I’ll be right back.’

‘Shrey, I’m asking something.’ Akanksha knew something was not right.

‘I told you I’ll be back soon.’

‘Shrey, you can’t avoid me. What’s wrong sweetheart? Why are you sounding so low?’

‘Akanksha…I’m a bad husband…I’m a criminal, I don’t deserve this life…’ Shrey broke down.

Akanksha couldn’t believe her ears. It was the first time in her entire life with him, that she witnessed the strong-Shrey breaking down in front of her. He had always supported him in her tough times, and this was the first time that Shrey felt so helpless and weak.

‘Where are you darling? I’m coming right now…’

‘I’m at the cliff, Akanksha. Right at the edge, I’m sitting there…’

‘Oh-my-God, Shrey don’t do anything stupid, I’m coming right over…’ Akanksha rushed to the door and signaled the driver to start the car, ‘I’m on my way, Shrey, remember I love you very much, don’t do something stupid Shrey, I beg you!’

Within fifteen minutes the driver rushed Akanksha to the cliff. Shrey’s car was parked at a distance. It was dark night, with no moon in the sky, only tiny stars twinkling and not giving enough light to see the surroundings. Akanksha switched on her mobile phone and stepped up. She spotted Shrey sitting at a corner. She walked and sat beside him.

‘Hey sweetheart…’ Shrey smiled at her. Akanksha hugged him tight, without uttering a word. Sometimes, words become superfluous and all you need is a tight hug from a loved one. As Akanksha’s arms wrapped around Shrey’s neck, the dam of emotions broke from his eyes and he started crying.

‘Shh…brave boys don’t cry like this…’ Akanksha hugged him tighter without asking the reason for his depression.

‘It’s about Akshan, I’m so worried about him. I can’t sleep at nights thinking about the mistakes I committed and Akshan is treading on the same path, the same bloody path! I love him too much to lose him…’

‘Shrey, Shrey…come’on, baby…get up, look at me…’

Shrey looked at her with teary eyes. This was the first time in twenty years that he had literally cried. It was the first time that he seek Akanksha’s support, otherwise it was always Shrey who spread his arms for Akanksha.

‘Akshan is fine and he will turn out fine, why do you worry? Look at you. You’re the most successful business-man of this country and who says you’re flawed? You’re perfect baby, perfect just the way you are. You don’t need to cry for anything…’

‘You don’t know me, Akanksha. There are some secrets, that I’ve kept from you, from everyone, and some things that I’ve kept to myself, locked inside my heart, so deep that even I’m not able to recognize them anymore, but what Akshan is doing, all those things are coming to the surface one after the other, and I can’t handle myself. He’s turning out to be me, a second Shrey Chauhan, something I can’t see.’

‘Shrey Chauhan is the most perfect human being alive, you should be proud of Akshan who’s turning out to be you!’ Akanksha consoled him.

‘You know nothing, Akanksha. I never told you anything, I never told you about my college, did I? There is a dark-phase of my life that I’ve concealed from everyone, not even my mother knew it, she also died thinking that she had the most perfect son of the world, only my father knew everything, and that’s why he always saw me as a criminal, but I can’t see it happening with Akshan…’

‘What is it baby? If you feel comfortable, share it with me, I won’t force you.’

Akanksha respected his choice of keeping his bad memories to himself. She respected the man for he respected their relationship and never let anything spoil it. But today, even Akanksha was afraid of the things which were making Shrey cry, what could they do to her relationship with him or his children? Would she be able to see him the same way? She badly wanted to know what was it that was bugging Shrey so badly, what was it that he wasn’t able to forgive himself or move on. Something really dark might be associated with him that he was crying even after decades of that happening.

‘It’s a matter of thirty years ago. I had entered into college. I was a stud, girls were madly after me, just like they’re after Akshan now. But I loved none of them. My passion was cars, bikes, alcohol and anything that was fast. I loved speed, that’s why I had more breakups than hookups. I made out with girls, flaunted about it and pretended cool, but inside I always searched for that one girl with whom I could fall in love with. I always had limits to my drinking habits, dad had imposed the limits. But one night, it was Hitesh’s birthday, my best friend from school. We were five. One car, his Honda. Shekhar was totally out of his senses and driving like maniacs. Everyone was too drunk to notice, but suddenly the car halted from 120 kmph to zero within a minute and we crashed into an empty field. Shekhar had accidentally hit a woman on the road. We rushed to see her but she was lying there unconscious. We all were so drunk but seeing her body lying in the pool of blood, everyone was kicked out of hangover. Some of the boys started arguing about hiding the body, while some wanted to take her to the hospital. If she would have died, we all would be in jail, so we dropped the idea of taking her to hospital. I pressed her nerve to see if she was alive, and yes she was. Never did I feel so horrible and helpless. I petitioned on taking her to the hospital, but Hitesh and Shekhar argued that she should be killed. I felt really bad, I was helpless, couldn’t do anything to save her. I was the stronger one so everyone asked me to pick her up and bury her in the fields – alive.’

Akanksha gaped at him blankly. She couldn’t believe she spent her entire life with a murderer. She felt like slapping her husband right there, but she controlled her anger and disgust and listened to him.

‘I picked her up. Her head rested at my shoulders, and she whispered in my ear – please save my baby…’ Shrey broke down again.

This time Akanksha didn’t console her. She didn’t see Shrey the same way anymore.

‘The woman was pregnant and we five moronic bastards had almost killed her and her baby. At that moment, I felt disgusted about myself, my passion of speed and cars and racing had claimed a life, I felt horrible. Everyone was asking me to dump her right there so we could walk off like nothing happened, but her words changed my mind. I rushed her to the car. The keys were still inside. I placed her in the back-seat and drove her to the hospital. The doctors couldn’t save her or her baby. They both died, and I confessed to killing her while four of my college friends had fled from the crime scene. I took the blame upon myself and was thrown into jail. It was my father’s reputation and heaps of money that saved me. My mother had no hint about anything, and till the moment she died, she thought that I was at a friend’s place that entire week, she couldn’t know why I left college after that and why I went into depression for two years.’

‘Shrey…’ Akanksha felt nasty about herself, for thinking about slapping him a moment ago. She knew her husband could never do wrong. He didn’t crash the car into a woman, and neither did he kill her. He took the blame despite trying to save her and her baby, he wasn’t wrong.

‘I spent two years of my life in one room. Father told mother that I had bad-drinking problems, so I had to attend rehabilitation, but mother didn’t know about the murder that night. I am a criminal. I’m a murderer, and that night still haunts me. I cut myself so much that the scars were visible on my fore-arm, where I got a tattoo before I married you. I cried so much in those two years that my father thought I would turn mad. He saw me as a criminal everyday he lived, and I couldn’t gather the courage to spit out the truth to him. You’re the only one who knows the truth, apart from the Police commissioner of the city, who was an ally to me at that time. He tried rounding up those four guys, especially Shekhar, but they all had fled the city and the woman was a poor one. Nobody petitioned for justice from her home, hell nobody turned up to even burn her body. I performed the last rituals with my father and he slapped me tight in front of her burning pyre. I can’t take those memories out of my head, no matter how much I try.’

‘It’s over, Shrey…it’s over. You tried your best, you didn’t kill her but still you took the blame, you behaved like a sensible mature man, while those guys behaved like cowards and ran off. You are the real man, Shrey, you have to move on from that time. It’s been thirty years now. It’s over baby, it’s alright, everything is alright…’ Akanksha kissed his forehead.

‘I’m worried about Akshan…’

‘He’ll be okay too. You’re worrying too much. He will be alright. We both are there with him, and we both have raised him flawlessly. He also has a brother like Nirvaan, who has always kept him out of bad company. Akshan will turn out like you, Shrey, and you’re perfect…’ Akanksha hugged him and he rested his head on her shoulders, ‘You have two handsome sons, a loving wife, what else do you need? And you say you don’t deserve this life? Shrey, you deserve it and you fully deserve it! You tried your best in saving that woman’s life, but it was her destiny that she died. You took the blame upon yourself despite being innocent. You spoiled two years in depression, cut yourself, blamed yourself, abused yourself, but you weren’t wrong. Baby, God sees everything and he is aware of what you did. That’s why he blessed you with all the happiness in the world.Β Akshan is a fine lad, you are worrying unnecessarily. He will turn out perfect, just like you, and you are perfect Shrey, just the way you are…’

Sometimes, it takes us too long to let go of the past memories which keep on haunting us. Sometimes, we keep on blaming ourselves for mistakes we didn’t even commit. Sometimes, we do the right thing, and still are termed as criminals. We shouldn’t worry or hate ourselves. We should move on, learn from the mistake and mature. Life is a series of lessons, every lesson teaches us something, and sometimes the teachings are more like punishments, but we shouldn’t be afraid. Everything is meant for a reason. We should always try to be just and do the right thing, no matter how hard it is to make the decision, and no matter what the result is. Doing the right thing will give us a satisfaction that at least we tried. Doing nothing is next to participating in a crime, and we mustn’t do it at any cost. We should raise our voice against the wrong and do what should be done, no matter what the outcome is. After all, the biggest judge is God, and he will never wrong you!

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  • Name*

    May 31, 2014

    Awesome Mehek πŸ™‚
    Jus luvd it thoroughly… Keep writing

    • Mehek

      June 1, 2014

      Thank you so much πŸ™‚

  • Purva

    June 2, 2014

    Awesome writing Mehek…
    I love your writings.
    When are you posting Tip#2 ?

    • Mehek

      June 2, 2014

      Thanks Purva πŸ™‚ I will post them as I get something new in my head about Shrey and Akanksha! Lol, it’s mostly upon the mood. Besides, I never really thought I would be continuing with them till a year or so! And people are still loving it πŸ™‚

  • prachi sharma

    June 3, 2014

    akansha and shrey m really in love wid dese 2 ….awsm very fond of ur blogs n stories ….ur writing are just magical.

    • Mehek

      June 3, 2014

      Hey thank you so much Prachi πŸ™‚ Stay connected!

  • akriti

    June 5, 2014

    Your writings are just beyond words mehek… I really loved your writong,. And shrey and akansha i just love the bonding they share…

    • Mehek

      June 6, 2014

      Thank you very much Akriti πŸ™‚ I’m glad you like them! There will be more write ups to follow…stay tuned πŸ™‚ You can join my facebook page here – http://www.facebook.com/GirlsHeart21

  • Shivam

    June 8, 2014

    Mehek you wrotes really well ….. Some time I think from were you got idea to write stories like this. You wrote so beautifuly

    • Mehek

      June 9, 2014

      Thanks Shivam πŸ™‚

  • Siddharth Shankar

    June 9, 2014

    Amazing as always! Just felt like I had read the whole story yesterday… Loved it! <3 πŸ™‚

    • Mehek

      June 9, 2014

      Thank you Siddharth πŸ™‚

  • Ashruti

    June 10, 2014

    waitng for #tip 3

  • pooja v.

    June 12, 2014

    shrey and akansh back πŸ™‚ just love dem :*

    • Mehek

      June 12, 2014

      πŸ™‚

  • saril

    June 15, 2014

    jst luv to read ur writing
    u r awsum
    n hpy to read abut shrey n akansha again….:)

    • Mehek

      June 16, 2014

      Thank you Saril πŸ™‚

  • jonaki

    June 17, 2014

    shrey n akansha r d prfct couple….
    whn u l b posting tip 4 dear mehek. waiting eagerly frm so many days

    • Mehek

      June 17, 2014

      Sweetie, I told the readers that these Love Bytes will not have any particular date, they depend on my mood and availability of time. I may post two in a day, and then I may not post even a single one in months. But I surely will try to write them more often πŸ™‚ This is simply an initiative to keep Shrey and Akanksha going! πŸ™‚

  • Pia

    June 23, 2014

    hye mehek . . heads off to u dear . .ur wriring iz jst awsome n i ever lov to read . .
    dz cuple shrey n akansha r out of d world . . pls do keep writing on dz . . n ya
    keep it goinn . . πŸ™‚

    • Mehek

      June 23, 2014

      Thanks Pia πŸ™‚ Keep reading and stay connected. Take care!

  • Karan

    June 25, 2014

    Supa Dupa lyk to all ur stories u just make laugh and also create the sad moments at the same time. Your Writing skills are awum just continue to write like the same in future i’ll be waiting for ur stories………;-)

    • Mehek

      June 26, 2014

      Thanks Karan πŸ™‚ Stay connected, there’s a lot more to come! You can subscribe to my website too, to get information of every post that’s posted here immediately.

  • Bulbul

    June 27, 2014

    yr chapter 4 jaldi dalo na.. πŸ™ waiting eagerly..

    • Mehek

      June 28, 2014

      Today it will be posted! πŸ™‚

  • kamna

    June 28, 2014

    toooo cute

  • akriti

    June 28, 2014

    I had already joined your page mehek…. From that page only i am able to read all your stuffs… I really like it mehek….

    • Mehek

      June 28, 2014

      Thanks Akriti πŸ™‚

  • adiba

    June 28, 2014

    awwww…such a luvly couple… wenevr I read der story I literally feel d characters alive…thanks a lot mehek 4 bringing shrey and akansha bck…totally luv dem…keep writing more blogs abt dem

    • Mehek

      June 28, 2014

      Thanks a lot dear πŸ™‚

  • kiran

    July 1, 2014

    Message*i m waiting for the next chapter..and i love your writin Mehak

    • Mehek

      July 1, 2014

      Thank you Kiran πŸ™‚

  • Namrata

    July 8, 2014

    pls post last part yaar

  • zysha

    July 15, 2014

    Mehak di plllzzz post the 5th part of love bites..
    we r eagerly waiting fr it…

    • Mehek

      July 15, 2014

      yeah, I’m posting it in a day or two πŸ™‚ And the name is ‘Mehek’ πŸ™‚

  • zysha

    July 15, 2014

    It was really amazing πŸ™‚
    Uh write so well, I mean ua writing skills r awsm :*
    luv uh alot… Thumbs Up ‘Mehek’ di <3

    • Mehek

      July 15, 2014

      Haha, thank you so much πŸ™‚

  • Bulbul

    July 21, 2014

    yr wen r u goin to post tip # 6… i m a regular reader…
    u r my fav writer!!! my inspiration!! actually not inspiration bcoz i dont write but the values expressed by u r damn right nd perfect!! may u live long :* :* :* luv u di..

    • Mehek

      July 21, 2014

      Hi, thank you so much for your kind words Bulbul πŸ™‚ I don’t know when will I write part 6 of it, because I started it up based totally upon the mood, I haven’t decided any particular deadline to complete it, and neither have I thought about the number of parts I have to write, I may end it up here at 5th only, I don’t know, only if I get the mood to write, actually the story is almost a year and half old and I really wish to move on from it now πŸ™‚

  • Bulbul

    July 27, 2014

    no no yr u cant move on this arranged series is d best of ol ur collectionos u can ask ur readers… this is exceptional i luv it nd also do d other readers… ask dem.. haaan ni toh!!

    • Mehek

      July 28, 2014

      Even the best things have to end someday πŸ™‚ It would be good if it ends here and we all bid it a goodbye with happy memories, else it may become boring in future, I don’t want that happening to this beautiful saga of Shrey and Akanksha. It was meant to be there for this much time, it’s been exactly one year since I started Arranged Love. I started with it in July 2013 and it’s 2014 now. It’s time to move on πŸ™‚

  • Priya

    December 4, 2014

    Hi Mehek, I just love your this story of Shrey and Akanksha. I just wish my life partner like him and my life too….I am in love with ur stories…keep writing…

    • Mehek

      December 4, 2014

      Hi Priya, thanks for the love and compliments. I’m sure you’d get a partner like Shrey! πŸ™‚ God bless. Take care…

  • noopur

    January 20, 2015

    Awesome you are mehek..everytime i read a new stroty of your I get to miss my soulmate more n more n love him even more… <3

    • Mehek

      January 20, 2015

      Thank you so much Noopur πŸ™‚ Means a lot! Do read entire arranged series (Arranged Love, Arranged Marriage and Arranged Emotions). It’s on my blog – http://www.mehek.in/stories

  • Bubly

    August 20, 2015

    Cud you help me How do I go for next page

    • Mehek

      August 21, 2015

      Just click on the number you see at the end of the post πŸ™‚

  • vijaya mishra

    November 23, 2015

    amazing story mehek..one of my friend told me abt this story and I read it..have u written more stories??have u published your book??plz tell me..and you are amazing..

    • Mehek

      November 28, 2015

      Thanks! πŸ™‚ You can read the three parts of Arranged Series on my blog. And no, it’s all available on my blog for free, I didn’t publish it into a book πŸ™‚

  • mahak

    January 5, 2016

    Yar mtlb mahak kya bolun yar aj mera mood itna kharab tha ki bs kya btau but shrey akanksha thanks to them nind achhi ayegi ab πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ luv u mahak :*

    • Mehek

      January 7, 2016

      Thanks Mahak! πŸ™‚ I share your name, but with different spellings πŸ˜› It’s “MEHEK” πŸ™‚

  • Nikhil

    February 3, 2016

    Again lovely read!

    • Mehek

      February 3, 2016

      Thanks! πŸ™‚

  • Bhattacharyya_Kaustuv

    July 3, 2017

    You are a fantastic writer Mehek !!!
    I came across your writings in Quora initially… Keep it up .
    Hoping to find , atleast one of your novel published!!! God bless!

  • Kaustuv

    July 3, 2017

    You are a fantastic writer Mehek !!!
    I came across your writings in Quora initially… Keep it up .
    Hoping to find , atleast one of your novel published!!! God bless!

    • Mehek

      July 5, 2017

      Thanks Kaustuv! πŸ™‚ One of my books is published under the title ‘Chained’.